I Live Down Here...... Peace

April 10th a star was born, clap for em.... These two poems are for/about my late grandfather.. I miss him...

I Live Down Here

It will be three years in November
I can see him now laughing and standing tall in his entire splendor
I miss him everyday
To get him back what wouldn’t I pay
But God called him right?
To send him a message I need a lot of string and a big kite
Or maybe a spaceship flight
He’s living in the sky, higher
Still can’t understand why as I get wiser
Still remember a joke he told that never gets old over time
Put his big finger close to my face, makes me laugh every time
“I live down here, you live up there, come down and see me some time”
I would laugh so hard as he ran his finger from my forehead to my chin
Never on a kids face have you seen such a grin
He would then grab me and put me on his knee and say hold on
That is before I got too big and grown
He once told me I couldn’t drive or have a girl til I was 23 or 25
Man oh man I wish he was still alive
To see me graduate and make a beautiful women my wife
Or tell me more things about my dad, my dad wouldn’t like
Ah, I feel an empty space in my life
I miss him saying grace at our Thanksgiving feast
But I feel his presence every time a wind blows from the East
And he lives in me and I’ll never forget
And I know he’s up there in Jesus’ private tent
Big Homie take care of him for all time
Hey granddad, I live down here, you live up there, come down and see me some time….

Peace

I’m not there yet, but I feel at ease
Like a soft summer breeze
It’ll be four years exactly in November
The last thing I remember is him so slender
But as I think there was so much joy
Joy that started when I was a little boy
Memories that last forever
Like when he stepped on a frog, clever
I couldn’t quite handle the line and stand
He went in and grabbed the fish with bare hands
It’s hard not to see the tears in my father’s eyes
I lost a superhero in my eyes
I’m searching for a peace
Something that helps is that wind from the East
And Gods calming influence and words
Hearing the singing of the birds
I don’t have that peace quite yet
So I’ll fly around till I find the nest
Hope in Peace you rest

Through the Cracks

Through the Cracks

Sitting on the dock of the sea
Watching the sun set on me
A lite sprinkle starts to form
Off in the distance a storm
The sprinkles tap me on my head
On my shoulders
On my face
And vanishes with out a trace

Sitting on the dock of the bay
Thinking of my life in this way
She starts to sprinkle down on me
And just when my eyes are open to see
Her kiss taps me on my forehead
Her hands grace my shoulder
Her words place a smile on my face
Then she vanishes through the cracks of the dock with out a trace

Sitting on the dock of the ocean
The dock rocking to the waters motion
Staring her in her eye
With mine I say why
But she doesn't answer, just a smile
And all the while
The storm is here, raining down
And now she's no where to be found
I have this feeling of a monkey on my back
I just sat there and let her slip through the cracks

Open Book

Can't judge a book by its cover
So to get a better look I open her cover
From the intro I read beauty and intelligence
A sense of womanhood, a strong presence
The cover is a sight to see in itself
But open the book to obtain much more wealth
She is a page turner
And I'm a fast learner
Page after page I read about love
And that she needs a lil shove
Her heart shines as I read more
This book is far from a bore
This is how you fall in love with a book
Reading into and not going by the look
The cover just brings you in
So an inside beauty that matches outside beauty is a win win
I see a woman's growth
The rising & falling slope
Each year in life is a new chapter to write and read
Looking for a good book, brothers take heed
Her life reads like an open book
Be careful, her pages will have you hanging from a hook
To enjoy completely you have to read
You need to show interest and plant that seed
Or it'll get cut short like a weed
Cover to cover her open book breathes life
Nice

Rainy Days

Rainy days
Oh how I love your ways
You always seem to soothe
You always ease my mood
Rainy days I do enjoy
My mind opens to deploy
Poems just rain out like from a cloud
I never want to leave the bed
But to far away places my mind does tread
To Prague and its stone roads
And Egypt with its Kingly thrones
The rain forest of Brazil
How about Paris streets or a Jamaican beach where my mind can spill
Travel to South Africa and enjoy a SA sunset
But in reality I haven't been yet

As the wind blows
I listen to the rain drops dripping on the ground outside my window
My breathing eases
My pulse decreases
My mind again drifts into a dream world
A world that isn't spoiled
A world refreshed in every drop
When the rain comes everyone stops
We enjoy the little things
The things that make us human beings
Irrelevant things are no longer relevant
The rain, can you stand it?
Oh soft musical rain how I love thee
While you're raining down I can clearly see
So my beloved rain, rain down on me

Heart Beat Away

We're a heart beat away from love
She doesn't think I hear her and gives a shove
I hear it all, but I'm not listening to your mouth
My ears are focused down south
And your talking is drowning out your heart
I'm listening to that part
See w/ being only a heart beat away
Any moment can turn into that special day
Where we show special love in a special way
The most loving and intimate things aren't always spoken
The sounds reaching from a heart broken
That sound & thirst for love is unlike any man can make
That's why it took for God to create
So baby shhhhh & hear me buzz
We're a heart conversation away from our hearts falling in love

If We Never Again

If we never love again
Know love was our friend
We've never really loved
But the feeling was still that there of
If we never get to have that true love experience
I was ready to give you my heart wrapped in shear tents
You could see most of it, but from an angle some was invisible
I gave to you to unwrap and make it visible
If we never get to love, hug or kiss
Just know that love will never be missed
For I will never let it go or dissipate
The excitement of the possibility gets me to hyperventilate
But if we never get to love and you're forever the one that slipped away
Well I don't know really what to say
I should probably be blamed for the confusion
But I'm a student forever learning in loves institution
I have my good and bad days
My I'm not good enough for her ways
And really to love again we must have loved at a previous time
We haven't, but then again we have in our minds
We've stepped foot over that line
But... In the end...
If we, never love again
I'll toss that love in Gods open hand
Maybe He'll send it back with a plan
If... Maybe...

Pain Pen

Pain Pen

Drown it all in the pen
Only linking to the Dark Knight is my skin
But no Biggie here
No Suicidal Thoughts here
Though I do feel fear
I get through it like leggings that are shear
Instead of myself, I drown it in the pen
I try to let go like in the wind
And I try and play it like I’m fine
So being a smart reader you know I vomit through my pen
All the ifs and buts out my pen
Like when she said we’re at our end
That battle I didn’t win
Or when he left to be with the Lord
Inside me that struck an emotional cord
From my eyes tears poured
Since then, no more tears
I’m drunk off pain, no more beers
Eyes so swollen I see with my ears
And I talk through my pain pen
If you only knew how hard it’s been
How many relationships that fell through
How many situations I couldn’t commit to
What took me so long to graduate?
More ammo for the pen
Why do certain type chicks to me gravitate?
More ammo for the pen
Life troubles like everyone else
But they’re not me, so not like everyone else
It ain’t always about a win
But so I don’t go crazy, I use my pain pen